It seems to have been 3 years since I either gave up on and/or forgot about writing here. But having some time on my hands to revisit some old posts and comments, I'm so very glad to have these memories, thought processes and states of mind cataloged.
Two months ago, I successfully defended my PhD, something which I could barely fathom in a realistic way when I started this blog. Not only that, I will be starting a post doctoral fellowship in September in a lab whose size, prestige, momentum, warmth and [dare I say] luxurious environment I was not prepared for. Once again, H.K. and I relocated for my career. He and his career are flourishing. All of this I can review in a later post. It is likely worth reflecting in summary on my graduate experience and finding the way forward.
For now, a period has ended, and there is a way forward. But for the first time in my conscience existence, I don't know where it will lead. And that is both terrifying and exulting.