I'm effing tired.
Everyone seems to think that I'm effing tired because I work 60-70 hrs a week. We've been through this, folks. I work 60-70 hrs a week because I'm obsessed, not because scienceownsmysoulomgfml. I gave my soul to Science freely.
I'm effing tired because it's effing hot outside and I bike every day. I'm effing tired because I have Crohn's disease. I'm effing tired because the most horrifying and consuming tragedy I have ever experienced has been looming over me for the last 6 months and threatens indefiniteness. And I'm effing tired because my entire lab seems to think that I don't contribute beyond my own projects (even though I do most of the lab-wide organization and cleaning up after people), and that I have no idea what I'm talking about (even though I have more experience with most techniques than anyone else and am actually quite good at what I do, despite the Jack Sparrow facade). Perhaps I need to be more outspoken about my menial daily achievements?..
So before you tell me that I look exhausted and need to take time off of work, please consider that my work is one of 2 things (the second being H.K.) that is keeping me from a serious mental and physical breakdown. Plz. Thx. Much love.
On a less snarky note, I got a SfN sponsored travel award to go to the conference in October. Yay!